New Beginnings – new Blog

I have crossed the threshold today.  My globe trotting, trend setting, party planning 20’s have been in the rear view mirror for quite sometime now even though I did manage to include them in the first couple of years of my third decade.  What can I say, I love life! I live it to the fullest that I can which includes great times with friends and family, travel, great wine and decadent food, they are my addictions, and I keep them well fed!

I have so many fond memories from my childhood so parenthood to me means returning the blessings I received to the next in line.  I was certain that I would have a family one day, however as I turned thirty I quickly began to recognize my profound desire for my addictions.  Am I ready for a baby?  Can I actually let go of what makes me so happy?  Am I ready to share my life right now? The answer was a resounding NO!!  Absolutely not…yet!

What happened to my maternal desires?  Was I on my way to becoming a lonesome wanderer?  I started weighing out my options, no kids= time, money, adventure etc… kids= no time, much less money, exhaustion, less time with husband, stress, worry and the list went on and on.    My love for being in the kitchen, cooking new, mouth watering meals with the perfect wine to complement was also a constant reminder of what I would be losing if I chose the 9 month crusade.  It seemed that this would be an easy decision for me.  At least I would have a perfect husband to wander with.

Of course it wasn’t. It’s funny how the things that you love and are attached to can really throw you off track.  What is the meaning of life anyway?  To eat great dinners every night?  To splurge on great wine and other libations as often as you like?  Surely I will grow tired of my lifestyle and by the time I realized that it would be much to late to start the family I always dreamed of.

So we took a step forward and let the Universe guide us.  So when I was a week late, I still believed that my period was off course from stopping birth control.  It wasn’t until my husband asked me when I would be ovulating again that I suddenly questioned my theory.

Which led to today. One week and one day late for my meeting with my  long time friend.  “So I am pregnant!”

My response was of shock and joy, this moment was actually happening!  A happy morning, a new day, a new beginning.  Another exciting story about to begin for us…

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